Happy Birthday

I know a few people having a birthday this month and I just want to wish them a happy birthday. 

To my love, I know turning 30 will be hard but I promise I will make you feel more like you’re turning 21.  You aren’t as old as you think you are and remember age is just a number, even if yours is 56.

To my father, I know you have been gone a couple of years now but I still miss you and celebrate your birthday as a reminder of where I came from.  You were a wonderful person and you will always be missed.  I know I didn’t get down to “see” you with the pizza and beer like I did last year but I will visit soon and bring a wonderful feast.

To my future ex-mother-in-law, I know I haven’t spoken to you in awhile now but I feel you are special in the life of my children, even if you aren’t there.

To my oldest brother, I know we haven’t ever really met and spent anytime together but I would like that to change.  I don’t want to lose contact with you and hope to see you in the future. 

To my oldest son, I know things have been rough and it isn’t easy to be a teenager but you need to realize you aren’t the center of the universe.  I look forward to helping you achieve your goals and dreams as you want to get your permit and a job, both responsibilities you need to act more mature to receive.

To my roommate’s “one true love”, may you have a special birthday this year.  Remember 30 isn’t that far away so enjoy your 20’s while you can.  If your still looking for someone to go out with, you have my number right?  I promise not to tell her what you do as long as you can behave yourself.

To my middle son, I know you are a very bright boy and you will do well in this world.  Someday people will see you for who you truly are and love you even more.  Always remember to smile and never let the world get you down.

May all of you get all that you want and more for your birthday.  I wish you all well.

I forgot a birthday and I know he may actually read this:

To my true loves brother ~ I know you guys don’t always get along but at least you are trying.  He has a thick head and I know sometimes he is stuck in his ways but as long as you are sincere in what you are trying to do I think he will come around.  BTW your writing on here is awesome.  I hope to meet you soon, any plans to come back to Iowa?

Also to those people who’s birthdays I didn’t mention I appologies.  It isn’t that you don’t matter, it’s just that I forgot but Happy Birthday to you anyway!!!

Wow!!!

I can’t believe it, there are actually people who are reading my posts.  I am so sorry I haven’t posted in awhile but I have been very busy.  I guess I will start with a little update.  I am still “camping” with my kids and roommate.  I am, I think, the only college freshman who is also “camping.”  Most of my classes are online so it is easy for me to do.  I am doing my best but Finite Math is kicking my butt.  I can’t believe how everything is turning out. 

I have been struggling with my children lately.  My oldest son feels he needs to be a pain and acts like he is the only one who is suffering.  Over the weekend he ran away for an entire day and only came back when he realized he didn’t have anywhere to go and got hungry.  I was nice, I fed him and had a long talk but I think it was on deaf ears.  He has kicked his little brother hard enough to knock him down.  What am I suppose to do?  I’m afraid he will get worse as time moves on and he gets bigger and meaner he will actually hurt his brothers and sister or even me.  If anyone has any ideas I would love to hear from you. 

I don’t like to use physical methods to discipline my children and maybe this is the problem.  I was raised in a home where I was spanked and to this day my mother still smacks me in the back of the head whenever she gets angry with me.  I hate it.  I never want my children to suffer in the ways I did.  There has got to be a way to make him learn that what he is doing is wrong without beating it into his head.

I know there are many a fine person out there who was never hit as a child.  I want to be one of those parents.  I try not to let the little things bother me but I can’t let this continue.

On the divorce front, my husband has been served the papers and hopefully before Christmas I will be a free woman.  I can’t wait.  I think this just might be the best Christmas present I could have ever asked for.  I was hoping to have it over sooner (it has been a year).  Look forward to hearing all about my new single life, the one where I don’t go out and just stay home and care for my children and never meet anyone and never move on.  Wait a second, except for the home part I already live that life.  Damn this new realization I have going on. 

Well I have other rant but I think one rant per entry is all I will allot myself today.  I promise to posting here a little more often if you promise to check back and read what I’ve written.

Oh I almost forgot…. thank you for reading my work.  I am glad there is a way to vent my frustration with the world and not have anyone hate me for it (well not in person anyway!)