Archive for August 2nd, 2007

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Life Interupted

August 2, 2007

What has this world come to?  I will be moving again, not even a year after the last one.  This is in small part to my landlord.  He has refused to fix our drain.  For the last week we have not been able to use the water at our house without it backing up all over the floor and the whole house smelling like sewage.  This means no showering, using the bathroom, washing dishes, ect.  This wouldn’t be so bad except for the kids. 

Since this all started we have done alot of eating out.  We have also realized what it must be like in third world countries.  We don’t take full showers and we try not to dirty any dishes.  The bathroom thing is the worst.  We are making it though. 

Right now we are waiting on the sewer guys to locate our septic tank so they can do their work.  Well that is what the landlord’s assistant has told us (the landlord is on vacation and wasn’t even planning on doing anything until he came back from whereever he went ~ a week from now).  We don’t believe the assistant so we have a call going out to the sewer guys to find out what is going on.  This is such a pain in the butt. 

Do yo uknow how hard it is to find somewhere to move when you have 6 people?  Especially one which is affordable for someone like me. 

Once when I was having a rough time I went and asked the state for assistance.  They actually had the nerve to tell me I should have found somewhere more affordable.  Now get this straight, this place isn’t outrageous.  I’m not sure what they were looking for.  I guess I could have gone and stayed at the Y with my kids but I don’t think that would be any better.

Well the last time we looked for somewhere to live my female roommate and I along with my kids had trouble getting in.  When we would talk to them on the phone they would tell us the number of people was fine but then we would show up to fill out the application and suddenly we had too many people for the apartment.  Then we figured it out.  We think they thought we were a lesbian couple.  I mean think about it a woman in her 30’s with 4 kids and a woman in her mid 20’s with no kids living together, there is only one thing they have to be ~ LESBIANS.  Of course we are lesbians because heaven for bid should two women who are friends live together.  One whose health isn’t very well and needs someone to look out for her and another who needs someone there to help out with the kids from time to time. 

All of this ended up going around the town I was from.  This one and one which involves me dealing drugs out of this house.  People can be so stupid.  Sure I deal drugs… I can’t stand them.  I don’t even take meds for a headache so dealing must be the logical step.  Well just so I don’t end up with the police out here at my house, I am not a lesbian and I am not a drug dealer.  

Hopefully in tomorrow the drain guys will fix my drain and all will get back to normal.  I also hope we find a place to move soon and I hope to get a really good job.  Until then we will make our way through life as it is now.     

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Remember the Good Times (Draft from my Birthday)

August 2, 2007

On my birthday I got to thinking about all of my life.  For the last couple of years I have felt like a loser.  Things haven’t gone as planned and I keep hitting an all time low.  Well I think it is a low at the time, then along comes something else which knocks me for a loop.

First it was my husband leaving me.  Then I lost my dad, then I lost my job.  Then I lost the unemployment case, had trouble finding a new job, and had a very good friend of mine leave.  I finally got a job but then my grandfather died and so I had to quit that job. 

Through all of that I had friends stick by my side.  I figured they would be there forever.  I was wrong.  Because of things I didn’t know we all grew farther apart. 

I have spent the last few months trying to figure out in which direction I should set sail in my life.  For the last year or so I had been living it to appease my boyfriend but now I’m looking to broaden my horizons.  I have given thought to moving away from here.  I don’t know if it would help but at this point I need something.

Another thought I had on my birthday was how much I miss my father.  I realized I may have been having a birthday and the focus was suppose to be on me but then I thought of how that day was to honor the fact my parents had sex and became parents.  It is kind of disturbing but true.  I realized I owe my parents a great big thanks because if it weren’t for them I wouldn’t be here right now. 

Well I was a little wrong about my birthday in the last post.  My mom did call and wish me a happy birthday.  Other than that it was nothing special. 

After my birthday I realized something else.  I don’t really have any friends.  I have one friend and I live with her so she isn’t really my friend she’s my roommate.  Other than her I have no one close to me.  What happened?  Am I really that big a loser, no one wants to be friends with me?  How badly did I screw up in life to have no one?  Well I guess I should be happy to have one person who is my friend.   

You realize just how many friends you have when you have something happen in your life.  I look forward to the day when my friends numbers will increase.  Until then, I will keep the one I have happy.